No. Draco will know we tried. That matters more than what happens to Lucius.
I mean, I'm reasonably fond of him. But you know, my plan for the last six months has been that if I got caught, I'd try to throw him and Lana Sandoval to the wolves before I offed myself. Anyone connected to me is at risk, if I get caught. It's why for years I avoided friendships with anyone I actually liked.
If there's any justice, we'll put Frank or Kingsley in charge (or Allie, but honestly I don't think she'd want it after herding us all this time).
But it won't be like before. It can't be. We've got to show better respect for Muggles, for one thing. Then there will be reparations - Merlin, those will be a mess to administer. And there'll be a whole host of new laws we'll have to think about.
Have you talked to Frank and Alice about your parents? Might be good for you, kiddo.
I can't say I knew them too well but they'd likely be proud of what you're trying to do here. And they'd understand it means breaking a few occamy eggs.
Only briefly. Alice is so busy I don't know when she finds time to sleep and comb her hair, and Frank couldn't really use the journals for months, though I suppose now he could.
I'm guessing Frank wouldn't cruciate his Aurors for mistakes. Especially when they weren't actually mistakes. (I mean -- there was literally no way we could have stopped Snape. We were inside the office; we got out just in time to see him cast AK and apparate away. Doesn't matter, of course, we were there and we failed and a price has to be paid, and better to take our punishment from Bellatrix than Our Lord.)
Yeah, I'm sorry you had to be related to her. Does anyone in the family like her, or are they all just as petrified of her as anyone else? Lucius is at least cautious with her.
I don't even think Voldemort likes her, and that's saying something.
No, I'm sure Aunt Druella approves of her eldest daughter. Narcissa's the only one who's ever been able to twist Bella round her finger even the tiniest bit, though. Well, Andi wasn't exactly afraid of her, either, but they didn't get on quite so well as Bella and Cissy.
Mostly the family learned to ignore her or stay out of her way. She's sort of like the type of housecat that will spit, hiss and claw at you without even a moment's notice. After a while, you stop offering a hand out to pet the creature.
Without you it would have been almost impossible, too. At least Hermione pointed out that we didn't really need to beat Draco to a pulp before using polyjuice on that Flynn bloke.
(Talk about doing the world favours! I almost wish we could have inflicted a few wounds after making him take the potion.)
Anyway here's the thing about being Auror Brodie. About thinking about Auror Brodie.
Back when I joined MLE I thought -- it's a little hard to explain this -- but I decided I was going to die. I wanted to bring down the regime and I reckoned this was going to cost me my life and every day
well, this is still true
I get up and think, 'well, I'm not in an MLE dungeon so they haven't caught me yet' but I go to work figuring it'll happen.
It's good, though, it keeps me sharp. It helps me take risks. There are a lot of risks I can't avoid, and other risks, well, they've paid off.
If that's how you feel, I'm sorry if I started something.
But I think it's important to distinguish between the person you were told to be, the person you currently have to be, and the person you wish to become.
Look. When I joined the Order for Albus, I had no plan for my life, either. I figured I'd never see 30. That wasn't the same sort of pessimism you describe, it was - I just didn't think my life had much value, if you take my meaning. So I didn't mind at all the idea of risking everything to stop Voldemort and his followers.
But now .... I have all sorts of reasons to want to carry on. It doesn't make me less reckless, and it doesn't distract me from the mission. It makes me all the more committed. I'd still give up my life, and gladly, if it meant putting a definite end to this madness.
I think the question is not 'Are you prepared to die' so much as it is 'Are you willing to die' - and so long as the answer is yes, you'll do whatever you need to do to get the job done.
And honestly, you might not be able to imagine it, but plenty of others can do. Unfortunately, if it were that simple, he wouldn't have been able to seize and hold power in the first place.
Right, but I meant, for me. I can't imagine not being willing to die, or kill, or do anything that would bring him down.
The hard part is you never know when you're putting a piece into place, and when you're just flying in circles. Especially with wild cards like madness-inducing lockets and tiaras and all the rest that have to be destroyed to keep him from coming back again.
I'm going to resolve not to think about that one, or I'll never get to sleep.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:14 am (UTC)Still have the shakes courtesy of my cousin?
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:16 am (UTC)The shakes have passed off. Headache's still pretty bad. Potion didn't do much.
I went to bed a while ago, but got up because I couldn't sleep.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:19 am (UTC)Though. No word yet on whether it was enough to save Lucius bleeding Malfoy. Is that the worry?
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:26 am (UTC)I mean, I'm reasonably fond of him. But you know, my plan for the last six months has been that if I got caught, I'd try to throw him and Lana Sandoval to the wolves before I offed myself. Anyone connected to me is at risk, if I get caught. It's why for years I avoided friendships with anyone I actually liked.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:18 am (UTC)It existed before. It'll still exist after. If there is an after.
What do you think it'll be like?
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:25 am (UTC)If there's any justice, we'll put Frank or Kingsley in charge (or Allie, but honestly I don't think she'd want it after herding us all this time).
But it won't be like before. It can't be. We've got to show better respect for Muggles, for one thing. Then there will be reparations - Merlin, those will be a mess to administer. And there'll be a whole host of new laws we'll have to think about.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:28 am (UTC)You lot calling me 'Auror Brodie,' it makes me think about what it would be like. Being her.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:36 am (UTC)I can't say I knew them too well but they'd likely be proud of what you're trying to do here. And they'd understand it means breaking a few occamy eggs.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:41 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:33 am (UTC)As for Bella, she's always been murderous, irrational and spiteful. In the Muggle world she'd be known as a psychopath. Ah, family.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:39 am (UTC)Yeah, I'm sorry you had to be related to her. Does anyone in the family like her, or are they all just as petrified of her as anyone else? Lucius is at least cautious with her.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:48 am (UTC)No, I'm sure Aunt Druella approves of her eldest daughter. Narcissa's the only one who's ever been able to twist Bella round her finger even the tiniest bit, though. Well, Andi wasn't exactly afraid of her, either, but they didn't get on quite so well as Bella and Cissy.
Mostly the family learned to ignore her or stay out of her way. She's sort of like the type of housecat that will spit, hiss and claw at you without even a moment's notice. After a while, you stop offering a hand out to pet the creature.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-27 04:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-27 04:38 am (UTC)Without you it would have been almost impossible, too. At least Hermione pointed out that we didn't really need to beat Draco to a pulp before using polyjuice on that Flynn bloke.
(Talk about doing the world favours! I almost wish we could have inflicted a few wounds after making him take the potion.)
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-27 04:45 am (UTC)Back when I joined MLE I thought -- it's a little hard to explain this -- but I decided I was going to die. I wanted to bring down the regime and I reckoned this was going to cost me my life and every day
well, this is still true
I get up and think, 'well, I'm not in an MLE dungeon so they haven't caught me yet' but I go to work figuring it'll happen.
It's good, though, it keeps me sharp. It helps me take risks. There are a lot of risks I can't avoid, and other risks, well, they've paid off.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-27 04:50 am (UTC)I've been thinking maybe I should ask everyone to call me Auror Lamont again.
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Date: 2014-06-27 04:55 am (UTC)But I think it's important to distinguish between the person you were told to be, the person you currently have to be, and the person you wish to become.
Look. When I joined the Order for Albus, I had no plan for my life, either. I figured I'd never see 30. That wasn't the same sort of pessimism you describe, it was - I just didn't think my life had much value, if you take my meaning. So I didn't mind at all the idea of risking everything to stop Voldemort and his followers.
But now .... I have all sorts of reasons to want to carry on. It doesn't make me less reckless, and it doesn't distract me from the mission. It makes me all the more committed. I'd still give up my life, and gladly, if it meant putting a definite end to this madness.
I think the question is not 'Are you prepared to die' so much as it is 'Are you willing to die' - and so long as the answer is yes, you'll do whatever you need to do to get the job done.
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Date: 2014-06-27 05:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-27 05:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-27 05:10 am (UTC)Sorry. That's apparently what happens when someone reaches advanced age.
Have a Scotch or something. Or wake up Bill. I'm sure he won't mind.
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Date: 2014-06-27 05:13 am (UTC)The headache's passed off a bit, maybe I will wake up Bill.
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Date: 2014-06-27 05:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-27 05:17 am (UTC)The hard part is you never know when you're putting a piece into place, and when you're just flying in circles. Especially with wild cards like madness-inducing lockets and tiaras and all the rest that have to be destroyed to keep him from coming back again.
I'm going to resolve not to think about that one, or I'll never get to sleep.
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Date: 2014-06-27 05:18 am (UTC)Thanks for talking.